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[28 Sep 2009|10:43pm] |
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[16 Nov 2008|10:47pm] |
I am not used to writing in a journal so please forgive me if I go off topic or repeat myself or ramble.
Life never goes according to plan. I have learned to accept this and take whatever life throws at me. Good or Bad. It will I believe make me a stronger person. I never dreamed of becoming a actress. I was always a dancer. I have to dance, if I don’t then I am not okay. Acting just came about with the dancing. I became a “Music Video Vixen” isn’t that what they call it? Well NSYNC, you all remember them right? Justin Timberlake was in that group. Well NSYNC cast me in their video for POP and that is when things really took off for me. Of course if it all ended today would I care? Acting doesn’t define my life. Dance does, as long as I can dance all is right with the world. But I suppose if I couldn’t dance then I would apply my Bachelor’s Degree in Psychology somehow. Try and really help out people who need it. Though nothing could stop me from dancing.
I would seriously love to be on dancing with the stars or start my own dance studio and teach. How amazing would that be?
I know what all you Supernatural Fans are thinking. “She’s the Crossroads Demon Sam killed!”. He’s going to hate me for saying it, but it was the worst experience I had professionally, ever! I’ve never been so nervous in my entire life! I’m very tied to the show. I really love it, and I respect it, and I know what it means to Jared so I didn’t want to go there and screw it up and have people be nice to me because I’m the lead actor’s girlfriend at the time. I wanted to be the perfect guest star in every way for Jared, for that crew. I’ve never felt so much pressure in all my life. I just didn’t want to let them down. That’s a big deal…being on your ex- boyfriend’s, well then boyfriend’s, show and you know his fans see you as his girlfriend and all rejoice when you die. But that isn’t the case. I am lucky and fortunate enough to get invited to all those Supernatural Conventions and the fans don’t try and tear me limb from limb! They are so adorable and sweet! They really do have the best fans.
Jared is a amazing guy, he really is. Sure he’s immature and has one hell of a temper but he is still that sweet caring guy you all think he is. I made the mistake of bitching over not enough time with him and things were said, feelings were hurt, hearts were broken and we were broken up. I fully blame myself for it because I am the one who couldn’t handle being away from him so much. It gets hard, long distance relationships. But you have to find a way to make them work somehow and I guess I was just sick of trying to find a way.
There is so much more to me that I will share with you all once I get to know you. Always leave them wanting more I always say. So I am going to leave you all wanting to know more about me and in time I am sure you will know more then you care too.
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